Sunday, November 24, 2013
I am just...so sad today. I'm feeling so worthless, so unimportant. I really need to talk to someone about how just...worthless I feel. But I can't. The person I need to talk to doesn't want to hear it, and I can't tell anyone else. I'm stuck. And the feelings may never go away. I feel like I'm never going to stop crying.
Friday, November 15, 2013
Today feels like it's a better day than I've been having recently. Maybe because it's Friday. I don't really know for sure.
Don't get me wrong, I still feel like I'm just barely treading water here, but at least I'm not sinking today...and that's something.
Part of me feels like this "better" mood is really just my brain tricking me. I made some decisions in the past couple of days that work to make other people happy, while simultaneously making me kind of miserable. Which is what I'm used to dealing with, so it's comfortable. And I feel like maybe I'm just feeling the weight of...trying...coming off of my shoulders. Getting back to what's comfortable isn't necessarily getting back to what's going to make me happy.
But at least...for today...I'm feeling better.